Why do I feel like I got slapped in the face?

Today is a rough day.  I've been trying to figure out why I am so upset over this election as opposed to elections in the past.  I was literally tearing up in my car so I really had to pull back and ask myself why?

So I think its this:  

I feel betrayed by my family, friends and those that voted for this man.  I feel like half the country just said I don't matter - that Women don't matter, Minority's don't matter, Human rights don't matter.

But who am I to be hurt by this result?
I am a mom.  I am an attorney.  I provide the majority of the financial support for my family.
I breastfeed my child.
I was a pageant queen.  I have not always been thin and I am definitely not as thin as I was when I did pageants.
I've had men try to grab and touch me inappropriately.
I've been bullied.
I was raised in rural Texas and have many men in my life and in my family who buy into the idea that women are less.


Now this country's president elect, my president, says that people like me are "disgusting", he says its OK to touch women inappropriately, he bullies, he says awful things  - and other Americans are OK with this.  My own father voted for him and that hurts.  My own husband is a Republican and is good with the results.  It makes me feel sick - like a punch to the stomach or a slap to the face.  I feel like all the bullies, sexists, racists have now been given license to continue their awful behavior.

Is it that people hate Hillary Clinton so much?  Or is it that this country is not ready for a woman president - so much so that we will elect a man, ANY man no matter how badly he behaves, over a woman?  I am just baffled.  I don't understand.

But I will try to.  I will try to continue to be a good citizen and support what I think is right.  I will try not to be disheartened by this election and what it says about our country.  And I will pray for the safety of our citizens and for the continued success of America.